Being called smart as a kid probably ruined me for a bit. I only say a bit because at a certain age it was on me to take responsibility for my path.
But as I watch my kids grow up with some of the same challenges that I had (probably even harder challenges) I see that I was never a good thinker.
To be honest, I’m not sure what that means exactly. But as I watch my kids communicate with me I can see their brains moving and they can’t quite get the right words out. That’s understandable for small children but I see so much of myself in them and how I often can’t say what I want.
And that’s because I don’t have the right thoughts. Or maybe I should say I don’t have clear thoughts.
So my goal is to become a better thinker. Someone who has clarity around the randomness that happens within their heads.